So, like I mentioned extremely briefly in the last blog post, I'm moving. The owner of our house (we are renting) has been taking care of his mother, who was 93 years old, but had passed away recently. Well, he wants his house back. We thought we were moving last year, so the ward and most of my friends already know, but now it's official. We tried to look for houses in the school district, but here's the thing, I've moved so often, my parents want a permanent home to live in, meaning a good one. One of the top homes my parents want is a self-sustaining farm house. The ones nearby are either higher than the budget my family wants or too old or small of a farm and house. So we found a house in Payson. Here's the other thing, Payson is about forty minutes from here, meaning less time spending with close friends around the neighborhood.
Being with friends, especially close ones, is my life.
Moving is hard, especially moving further from your friends than you wish. I can't just call a last minute hang out with a friend and see each other for a few hours. I'm too far away for that, I have to either plan it a few weeks ahead of time or don't see each other at all. I'm going into my busy stage, 16, the time with work and other extracurricular activities. That's the disadvantage. The advantage is, I can actually drive myself to my friends houses and I'm old enough to go on dates, meaning better friendships and you get to see those guy friends you haven't seen for a while. Now I'm not quite 16 yet, but that's this year, I'm going to be that age in October, so I'm getting ready for that sweet sixteen that's going to rock my world.
I've moved a lot, and when I mean a lot, I mean a lot!!!! Too many to count on my ten fingers. I've lived in four states, Utah (born and local), Kansas, Missouri, and Hawaii. I've only lived in Missouri and Hawaii once, but Kansas I've live there twice, and Utah, I won't even tell you how many houses I've lived in Utah. Payson is still in Utah, so at least is isn't as far as Hawaii. At least I didn't need to tell my friends that I'm moving 3,000 miles away and I can't hang out with them AT ALL. I mean, I can still hang out with them, I'm only forty minutes away, it's just trickier.
I have one friend who's parents are divorced. Her dad took custody over her after her mother was going to move to California. But she's been staying at her mothers to go to school, but since her mother is gone, she has to stay at her dads in Orem. Orem is about twenty minutes away, a little closer than Payson, but still a ways away. Her dad takes her to school every day, but not only that, she said her dad could always pick me up to hang out with her if she ever wanted to. I could pick up my friends myself once I turn 16 and get my drivers license. I can't do the school thing though, Orem is in the same district as the school I go to, they can make acceptations for that. Payson, in the other hand, is in a completely different district. I don't know how easy they would let me go to a school in a different school district. So I can't do that.
The house is nice, the land is nice, it has five acres of cherry tree, in front of the house is miles of four-wheeling and dirt biking hills, the Utah lake is near with a nearby dock, and the view is beautiful. The house is exactly what my parents want, there is just that one con about it.
The distance. The stupid distance! I'm that person who is friend motivated. Yes, that means I can easily make new friends, I do that all the time, but I made a lot of close friends here. I want to still be near my close friends, not far from them. Anyway, I'm also not a kind of person that gets upset over things easily or angry, well, I don't express them. But this blog is like my online journal, so I might as well express what I'm feeling. So my feelings for this is like excitement, confusion, frustration, the feel to be inspired, loneliness, curiosity, doubts (that's a big one), and many others. I just have major mixed feelings about it and I don't know what to do about it.
Being with friends, especially close ones, is my life.
Moving is hard, especially moving further from your friends than you wish. I can't just call a last minute hang out with a friend and see each other for a few hours. I'm too far away for that, I have to either plan it a few weeks ahead of time or don't see each other at all. I'm going into my busy stage, 16, the time with work and other extracurricular activities. That's the disadvantage. The advantage is, I can actually drive myself to my friends houses and I'm old enough to go on dates, meaning better friendships and you get to see those guy friends you haven't seen for a while. Now I'm not quite 16 yet, but that's this year, I'm going to be that age in October, so I'm getting ready for that sweet sixteen that's going to rock my world.
I've moved a lot, and when I mean a lot, I mean a lot!!!! Too many to count on my ten fingers. I've lived in four states, Utah (born and local), Kansas, Missouri, and Hawaii. I've only lived in Missouri and Hawaii once, but Kansas I've live there twice, and Utah, I won't even tell you how many houses I've lived in Utah. Payson is still in Utah, so at least is isn't as far as Hawaii. At least I didn't need to tell my friends that I'm moving 3,000 miles away and I can't hang out with them AT ALL. I mean, I can still hang out with them, I'm only forty minutes away, it's just trickier.
I have one friend who's parents are divorced. Her dad took custody over her after her mother was going to move to California. But she's been staying at her mothers to go to school, but since her mother is gone, she has to stay at her dads in Orem. Orem is about twenty minutes away, a little closer than Payson, but still a ways away. Her dad takes her to school every day, but not only that, she said her dad could always pick me up to hang out with her if she ever wanted to. I could pick up my friends myself once I turn 16 and get my drivers license. I can't do the school thing though, Orem is in the same district as the school I go to, they can make acceptations for that. Payson, in the other hand, is in a completely different district. I don't know how easy they would let me go to a school in a different school district. So I can't do that.
The house is nice, the land is nice, it has five acres of cherry tree, in front of the house is miles of four-wheeling and dirt biking hills, the Utah lake is near with a nearby dock, and the view is beautiful. The house is exactly what my parents want, there is just that one con about it.
The distance. The stupid distance! I'm that person who is friend motivated. Yes, that means I can easily make new friends, I do that all the time, but I made a lot of close friends here. I want to still be near my close friends, not far from them. Anyway, I'm also not a kind of person that gets upset over things easily or angry, well, I don't express them. But this blog is like my online journal, so I might as well express what I'm feeling. So my feelings for this is like excitement, confusion, frustration, the feel to be inspired, loneliness, curiosity, doubts (that's a big one), and many others. I just have major mixed feelings about it and I don't know what to do about it.